The last few nites when i go to bed iv bin thinking of you there with me with are bodys tyt together nothing sexual just Hugging tyt

Anyway a wile ago i saw a shooting star and i made a wish but it neva came true but it never stopped me making the same wish over and over again if i see anything that has the myth of makeing a wish when you see it

But im sure you dont know what it is because as time goes on i want less and less and what i want from you i will not say because thats the golden rule of not saying

Just know apartly there will be a meteor shower this weekend and i will be looking up at the sky and wishing again and you are part of my wish but again im not saying what part

Anyway never forget if you need a freind or safe place your more than welcome because i value you more than my own needs because getting to know you would be amazing and lets be honest again just hearing your voice would be like haveing sex with my ears i know it sound weird but when you sit down and think about it you will understand what i mean

Anyway i know this letter sounds werid but im also sure if you understand me you would no my emotions of love for you control me and you are number 1.3 in my mind as you share the same love i have for my kids

Anyway please look after yourself during this corona viruses because i know you have good in your heart and can make this world better with who you are because you are a good person deep down

Love you always love Jonathan xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxxxxxxoxoxoxoxo

I do wonder if you will ever read these letters one day but anything is possible

When i look back to the day i saw you and i think how beautiful you are i wouldnt be surprised that you wouldnt have other guys fighting to date you ore that your married and happy with one lucky git

But also i think about if you have a family of your own and if you do i reken you would be a fantastic mum who would do anything for your kids but just one of many reasons i wont you

But i guess more and more lately iv bin thinking of that you must be married and like iv said befor treat others how you want to be treated so if you are just remember im always hear for you no matter what even if all you can offer is friendship because i would rather see you happy as a friend than never see you happy ever at all

But i still will love you no matter what as its not like you can switch of love because its forever i will just have to learn to live with it some how

Anyway i cant offer much in life but if you need me in anyway even just as a friend to listen a lover to love anythings i am hear for you because i would rather have you in my life than not have you in my life at all

Love you lots love johnathan

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This journey in life has never bin easy there will always be good days and bad days and i offten think of the day i saw you and how i would change it if i had the chance and walkd after you and talked to you

Since then my life has bin a roller coaster of emotions and yes it would be easyer to just forget you and get on with my life but thats not how love works instead you try to learn to live with out the ones you love who arnt in your life

I can understand how it sometimes sounds when i say i love you with out even knowing you but just like the storys of books love at first sight is real it even took me by surprise but like iv said befor its a feeling that you have never had befor and the feeling answers every question you have with out asking them

And also the feelings of a heart of a angel by just looking into your eyes

Maybe love at first sight is just like empathic accuracy i think its called were my subconscious mind locks on to yours and gets all the answers it needs to know that you are the one with out saying a physical word i duno

But what i do know is i love you and i will always do even if i die a old man with out you. my heart will always belong to you no matter were my life takes me

And nothing will change how i feel about you because thats how love works its forever no matter what happens

Anyway change of subject another thing i wish i had done when i saw you is cheekd out your ass but i didn’t i was completely fixed on your eyes and face because of what i felt plus you were gorgeous so i couldn’t look anywhere eles

Anyway please keep looking after yourself during this epidemic

Love you love johnathan

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I thought to myself that writing this when im drunk was a good idea so you could see what im like

And guess what im still the same i still want to jump you for a hug and kiss i still want to spend the hole nite hugging you in my bed i still love you just as much as i did yesterday and yes i still want to rip your clothes off in the heat of passion and make love to you but most of all i still just want you in my life so i can get to know you better

But one thing that has bin on my mind the most lately in just hearing your voice

But i have woke up a few times in the morning and looked to my side wishing you was there and dreaming you were

It amazing how you with out even trying have influenced my life so much but thats why i know how i feel is true and how i never had a clue befor i saw you

But i dont expect a miracle to happen i dont expect you to feel the same way i do but i do hope a few dates with me you mite realise im not a bad guy thats if im lucky enough to get a date with you

Anyway i just want to say one last thing and that is you are my personal fantasy and if it comes true or not then which ever lucky guy to end up being with you i will always be jealous of lol

But no Matter how the future plays out just always smile please

Love you love johnathan xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Every day is different but the one thing that is always the same is i always think of you

Like right now im laying in my bed and fantasising about you laying in my bed next to me and you turn and face me and we both hug each other but also kiss and smile at each other

But then is time to get some sleep so you turn on you side away from me and i put my arm aroud you and pull you close to me till are naked bodys are touching why my other arm gose under your pillow so now both my arms can hold on to you

But then you turn your head to look at me and say good nite and i move my head over to you and steal one more kiss

And then we both full to sleep with you in my arms

I know everyone has different fantasize but this is one of a few that are all todo with just you that i have

I hope maybe one day it will come true

As fantasising isant enof i want you for real

And when i say other fantasize about you nothing bad one fantasize is just to hear your voice because i can only imagine how much pleasure it would bring to my ears and mind

Anyway i really hope your safe and well during this corona viruse epidemic because it would break my heart if anything happened to you

And that your on my mind that much that just for the last houre of tonight your all i have bin thinking about but im sure you understand as you only have to look in a mirror and your see what i saw

Anyway good nite gorgeous thinking and wishing for you every day love johnathan xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

The world is changing so much at the minute. and there are 3 people i worry about the most my 2 girls and you

And ive always known that life has no guarantee. and anyone can die at any time and you ore me could be dead by tomorrow. but i hope you know that if that day happens that i will die with a smile on my face. because for a few minutes of my life i finally new what true love at first site felt like because a saw you my soul mate.

What ever happens in the future be happy never hide how you feel. and always do what makes you happy.

And i new from the day i saw you that you were my soul mate but unfortunately every life time or reincarnation we are not guarantee to be together maybe life has a way of a test i duno. But if thats the case this life time then i look forward to my next life or how many reincarnations it may take till we are together again

Loveing you beyond time and space love johnathan xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Times are getting tuff and the world is changing fast

But nothing will change how i feel about you

I know nothing is guaranteed and there are many paths in life and with this crono viruses you ore me could end up dead i hope not and also with this corona viruses the chance of finding you or meeting you gets slimmer every day

But always remember your worth so much to me and you are 1 of the 3 reasons im on a better path in life and no matter what happens in the next year i hope you find these letters and know how amazing and life changing you are to me

So live your life and always be happy and never settle for less than you deserve

Love you gorgeous love johnathan oxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I wish i had met you when i was younger i wish we could of slipd each other love notes in class i wish we could of hid behind the bike sheds between classes for a quick kiss

But most of all i wish you were my child hood sweet heart from school till the day i die because that is beyond perfect

And I often see couples and wish that was you and me

And sometimes i wonder if lifes playing a cruel joke on me because you walked in my life just as fast as you walked out

But i know evan if i never see you again at least i know what love feels like

Its amazing

Just never forget i am always gona love you no matter what the future brings

Sweet dreams love john xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

There isant a day that doesn’t pass with out you on my mind

The amount of times a fantasy about you in every way from hugging you to ripping your clothes of to just what i would do if i saw you again

But lets be honest i talk the talk but if i saw you i would be scared a little because its not easy knowing what i would say

As i wouldn’t want to sound like a idiot

But i know i would keep looking at you lips wanting to kiss them

But anyway just remember always smile every day because the positive impact you made on my life can never be forgot for the rest of my life

You will always be my soul mate no matter what

Hope you have a amazing week gorgeous

Love you

Love johnathan

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Hello gorgeous hope you are well

I’m still missing you every single day and still wishing you was in my arms having some huggles together

But also thinking about the thing i would like todo to you

One would be hide the toilet roll in the bath room so you would have to play hide and seek

Another is hang a white sheet in a dark room from a celling so you mite walk in and think its a gohst so you have to come running into my arms for protection

Another is to stack a pile of chairs and other stuff up in a tower in the front room so when you come back from work you think you have a poltergeist

Lol

And other things i dont want to give everything away

But would only do things like that because at the end when you know its me it will make you laugh and to see you laugh with that smile on your face is priceless

But also because i love you and to Laugh is good for your health

Just hopeing like always you where here right now in my arms because i would love a real hug off you as that would make me smile but if that happens your have to lie and say i was a grumpy old man as i have a rep to uphold lol

Anyway miss you gorgeous

Stay safe

Stay happy

And love you lots love your ginger knite 😘 lol love johnathan xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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